Just wanted to take a moment to acknowledge all of the beautiful people out there that have felt, or feel broken. You are worthy and You ARE BEAUTIFUL!
Sticks and Stones https://youtu.be/sa1iS1MqUy4?si=rpiUCfu_61UsgHXU I have listened to this free style poem as a Ted Talk by Shane Koyczan at least 3 times so far since Monday. My heart lurches out of my chest as I remember feeling lost, unaccepted and afraid as a child. His words reach out and tug at my soul and I cry out inside "I hear you". Sticks and Stones may break our bones but, YES words do hurt tremendously. I remember being called names and ridiculed, day after day after day....and I was told "Kids will be Kids" and "You just need to get over it". My 4th grade year just seemed to be a groundhog day of repetitive shaming and ridicule. And STILL to this day some adults have said "Haven't you ever gotten over that?". The school was a twilight zone in which it was... normal that kids were cruel, and being nice just got you hurt normal that kids called you names, some so cruel, and vial that I didn't even
Gone is 2019 and 2020...... I was on a roll for a tiny bit at the end of 2019 and then got sidetracked with putting my thoughts down and sharing them with other people. I wondered why? Maybe it was because COVID derailed my focus, or maybe if I was being really honest I didn't really think anyone cared what I had to say. But does it really matter if anyone cares? I am often surprised on how I can find my cup more easily filled by a quick note of appreciation from someone else versus a brief moment of self admiration. I am not really good at self recognition or praise. Still trying to work on it and still struggling. However, I find that when I am in my weekly bible plans I become less focused on me and more on HIM. When I allow myself to get lost in the idea that I don't need to worry so much about what others think it is like coming up out of the water from drowning and being able to capture a huge breath of fresh air. I tend to slow down, be less self critical,
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