Vulnerable Strength

 Gone is 2019 and 2020......  I was on a roll for a tiny bit at the end of 2019 and then got sidetracked with putting my thoughts down and sharing them with other people.  I wondered why?  Maybe it was because COVID derailed my focus, or maybe if I was being really honest I didn't really think anyone cared what I had to say.   But does it really matter if anyone cares?  I am often surprised on how I can find my cup more easily filled by a quick note of appreciation from someone else versus a brief moment of self admiration.  I am not really good at self recognition or praise.   Still trying to work on it and still struggling.  However, I find that when I am in my weekly bible plans I become less focused on me and more on HIM.   When I allow myself to get lost in the idea that I don't need to worry so much about what others think it is like coming up out of the water from drowning and being able to capture a huge breath of fresh air.  I tend to slow down, be less self critical,